Tuesday 14 August 2012

Italy- The Final Musing


Saturday, March 25th, 2012

And so…the final installment of the Italy Musings….  I’m sitting at Emmanuel College waiting for class to begin and I have to admit, I’d rather be at home in my bed sleeping.  Jet lag isn’t usually a problem, but for some reason, this time it’s really hitting me.  Nevertheless, the caffeine is pulsing through my veins and I hope it will carry me through.

            Today was the first day back at school and while I was happy to see most of my little munchkins, I couldn’t help but wish I was still in Italy.  I was excited to share my stories with my students, but was sorely disappointed by the lack of response from my Grade 9 students.  I was so glad to teach my grade 12s and share some of what I experienced with them, though words could not adequately explain what my musical experience in Italy was like.  I did find myself getting teary eyed as I talked about some of the experiences with these wonderful students.  I love teaching these grade 12s because they understand what music can do, and what it can evoke.  I feel myself calming a little bit now, as I settle into this comfortable chair in the lounge and start to put down my thoughts and continue to document my experience.


            I left off in musing 2 with the beginning of our bus tour.  After spending a lunch at the Piazza Navona, we made our way to the Vatican Museum- this is where some of the chaos started.  We were let off on the busy side of a street and began the long trek to the entrance of the Vatican Museum.  Though Wednesday, the middle of the week and during a low travel season, the streets were thick with tourists milling around the street, trying to keep up with their tour groups.  Local tour guides held flags and umbrellas and pointing sticks up in the air so that their groups could spot them and follow them like a group of anxious kindergarten kids.  The group I belonged to, 160 people strong, had yet to meet our local tour guide at the museum doors.  Like cattle, we were herded by our tour mangers and began to walk to the Museum doors, a couple of blocks away.  It is difficult enough trying to herd 160 people, but our group was a rag tag group with people in wheel chairs, using canes, people with bad backs and people with short legs as well as those who were physically fit.  We also had members who were easily distracted by the sights around them and constantly needed a guiding hand to bring them back to the group.  Somehow, we made the walk, divided into 4 groups and met our tour guides.  Our tour guide was a lovely young man named Mario who had a baby face that sported a welcoming smile.  We were just about ready to go into the museum when we realized we were missing some of our “cane” and “wheel chair” people.  This was when panic began to set in, and while we waited in the sea of people, our tour leaders tried to find the missing people.  When it was decided we couldn’t wait any more, we entered the museum, passed through the scrutiny of the security guards and tried to stay in our groups.  To our relief but also to our annoyance, the missing people were in the museum- someone had seen them and led them through a much closer door.  The only problem was, no one had thought to let the group know.  We had to quickly put our annoyance aside though as we had to begin the tours or else we would run out of time. 

            What can I say about what I saw at the Vatican museums, except that I was in awe.  The Sistine chapel took my breath away.  The collection of sculptures and of paintings made me appreciate art in a way I had never appreciated it before.  Mario was probably the best tour guide I had ever had- a knowledgeable and humourous man- and he made the art and history come alive.  The only problem with this feast for the eyes was that it was also a pain to the feet.  For three hours we walked, trudged up stairs with our slow group and took in the sights.  By the time we had reached the actual Basilica of St. Peter, we were exhausted.  For me, the exhaustion was short lived.  I don’t know about the rest of the group, but as I entered the Basilica, the excitement of being there gave me a boost of energy.  I physically gasped as I walked into the sacred space and I unintentionally tuned out everything that Mario was saying.  I was in my own little Spiritual fog.  As I drank up the beauty around me, I found tears stinging my eyes- even more so as I turned to see my favourite sculpture, the Pieta, in its simple profundity. 

            We had to rush through the Basilica as it was nearly time for us to meet as a choir, but I was able to make a stop at the place where Pope John Paul II was resting.  I don’t know why I feel such a strong connection to Blessed John Paul II, but I have always loved the man.  When he died, I was so deeply moved and affected.  Perhaps it was the love he showed for young people, or the fact that he was such a “real” person, not being ashamed of the fact that he was an actor and always reaching out to all nations.  Perhaps it was his well-written and well-supported Encyclicals or the poignant speeches he made- whatever it was, I have a true love for the man.  Being at his resting place moved me so deeply and my only regret was that I couldn’t have a couple of minutes to pray.

            We gathered after our director sternly told Mario that the choir was needed immediately.  An air of panic began to hit the choir as we realized that we were later than we needed to be.  We were ushered to the St. Joseph’s altar behind the main altar and the panic became even more frenzied.  At this point, I will not point fingers at anyone nor will I lay blame- all I can say is that, somewhere along our journey to the Vatican, there had been some major miscommunication.  The program we were set to sing at mass which had been “approved”, apparently had not been approved and a very stern looking priest was talking to our director.  Our music was not appropriate for Lent.   I was aware of that earlier in the planning of the trip, and I often wondered in previous months how we had been approved, but that is neither here nor there.  With literally minutes before the beginning of holy mass, our program was changed.  The choir was much larger than the choir area and so the singers were arranged in a way where many of the choristers could not see the conductor.  Our organist was not allowed to play the organ before mass.  You could cut tension with a knife.  In the midst of this, I too began to worry.  I’ll be honest.  Part of me was afraid that I wouldn’t get a chance to conduct and that I would have to face the embarrassment of telling everyone at home that my dream had been shattered.  Just as my stomach began to knot, I was told that I’d still be good to conduct the Introit.  All of a sudden, the tension was interrupted by the sound of a deep bell ringing.  I knew this was the beginning of mass, so I literally jumped over the pew and jumped onto the conductors box- it was not the dignified beginning that I had envisioned.  The Vatican organist frantically motioned to our organist to start playing.  Frazzled, he began, but we could barely hear the introduction.  Taking a deep breath, I grounded myself during the short introduction, took another breath and began to conduct.  With that first note sung by the choir, I could feel something very profound happening.  The sound of the voices echoing through the chambers of the holy space resonated not only in the church but in my heart.  Here I was, at the most central place of worship in my faith tradition, making music in praise of a God who I loved so very much.  In those couple of minutes of music making, I felt a connection to all those who had made music in those chambers once before.  I felt a connection to the frazzled singers who had relaxed into the music and most of all, I felt a connection to God.   Through the gift I had been given, through music, I felt that I was giving back to Him.  It was so profound.  For many, many years, I have tried to find my niche in this world and though I have felt comfortable in places, I had never been sure if I was really where God wanted me to be.  In those few minutes, I felt a certainty that I was doing God’s will- ministering through music in the Roman Catholic Church.  Tears were starting to well up in my eyes as this confirmation of love and certainty filled my heart.  This was my place- not the Vatican, not conducting the choir- but expressing my love for my God through song.  I held it together during the song and throughout the rest of mass, but at the end, as I thanked my director for giving me such a wonderful chance, I lost it.  As if a spiritual catharsis, I sobbed into his tuxedo lapel at a loss for words.

            I will be honest, it was difficult after that experience as those who could not see singing at a mass as a ministry, but more as a performance started on anti-Catholic rants.  No one said anything to me directly, but I could hear the comments starting as soon as we entered the bus.  The anger that we couldn’t sing what we wanted to sing clouded some people from realizing just how beautiful the experience had been.  We- a mish-mash group of different people from all different denominations- had shown solidarity and harmony by singing together as a group.  We were like the mosaics that were so common in Rome- many different pieces coming together to form one beautiful piece of art that together formed a full picture that praised God.  While I am a very traditional Catholic- I’m not at all considered progressive- I have never judged those who belong to different denominations.  If we celebrated the similarities, we would find that our love of God is common.  I was hurt that I was hearing these attacks and that there was so much misconception surrounding the situation.  It took away from some of the joy I had felt just an hour before.  Me being me, I swallowed and hid the hurt as we headed to a dinner with entertainment and stayed all smiles.  When we got back to the hotel, it was another story.  After having a few nightcaps with choir members, I headed to my room, curled up with my teddy bear like a child and cried.  The tears started off as tears of anger but as I let the anger wash out through the flow of tears and began to reflect on my own spiritual experience, the tears changed from anger to tears of peace and joy at how lucky I was.  Religious fights and intolerance and misconceptions have happened since the beginning of organized Religion.  Christianity, when it was a new religion, faced division right away.  There was conflict between doctrines, heresies were proclaimed, leadership was argued over.  I realized that no matter what denomination, there was always dvision- why?  Simple- we’re human.  While our institutions are influenced by the divine, we ourselves are not divine and human nature takes over.  No matter what, there will always be misconceptions and hurtful words and while they may upset me, it made me realize that I am so very comfortable where I am.  I am happy to be a Catholic.  I do not delude myself by saying everything in the Catholic Church has always been wonderful, but really, can anyone name anything that involves humans that has been perfect and flawless? 

This was again a profound moment for me, realizing that yes- I was a happy and proud Catholic and even more proud of the fact that God had gifted me with something I could offer back to him. 

            The Vatican experience went from amazing, to bittersweet and back to amazing for me, and provided enough revelation to last me a lifetime- however, that was not where the Spiritiual experience and revelation ended.  I didn’t think I could take much more as my heart was full and I was physically weary from the spiritual roller coaster, but there was another experience that touched me even more profoundly. 


(I’ll stop here to let you know that it is now 4 days since I began to write musing 3- the busyness of my North American life has taken over once again and this is the first time I have found even a few moments to reflect and muse)


            So, what could touch me more profoundly than the Vatican?  Our next musical experience came close.  We went to the small town of Palestrina to sing in the church where Giovanni Pierluigi Palestrina himself had been the organist.  For my non-musical friends, Palestrina was a great composer in the church.  He finds his place in my top 5 composers.  His choral music has always been among my favourite music to both sing and to listen to.  The church was once again beautiful- what Church in Italy had I found that had not been- and a feeling of old familiarity came over me when I entered the church.  Again, I found myself thinking of those who had been in the church over years, who had worshiped the same God, participated in the mass and sung the same beautiful music.  While the temperature in the church was frigid, my heart was warmed as I thought of the connections. 

            Once again, while we sang, I found myself lost in the music.  The resonance of the voices, the meaning of the music, the joy of singing about and to God brought me to tears again.  Thinking of Palestrina and reveling in the fact that I was singing one of his most famous compositions in his very home church elevated my joy and heightened all of my senses.  Once again, I was going into sensory and spiritual overload.  The sound of the singing, the sight of the art (including a sculpture by Michelangelo), the feel of the old pews, the smell of the cold stone walls and the taste of the sacred air I was breathing was invigorating.  While this was not as profound as the experience at the Vatican and while I did not experience and major Epiphanies, I still was moved by the whole experience and was sad to bid adieu to  St. Agapito church when we left.  I was happy to learn that this evening had been a very touching moment for many of my fellow choir members and that it had taken away some of the bitterness they were feeling from their experience at the Vatican. 

            My most profound moment would follow the next day, the Saturday.  It was going to be our final performance in a church and it was a magnificent church.  San Andrea della Valle was a beautiful church- one of the most beautiful I had ever seen- which actually held the body of 2 Popes and which housed one of the most beautiful ceilings I had ever had the blessing of seeing.  We arrived there in the morning and when I walked into this holy place, I literally lost my breath as I walked in.  The combination of the cold air and the magnificence and gloriousness of the place hit me full force as we walked in.  I don’t know what it was about this church, but the air of holiness almost made me feel like we had entered the Holy of Holies.  My eyes immediately shifted to the magnificent ceiling and then like a distracted squirrel began to bounce from corner to corner of the church.  The art was heavenly, the altars holy, the organ- magnificent.  I was lucky that I did not trip over anything or knock over any of our slow moving choir members as I walked to the sacristy where we would leave our belongings-  I didn’t look at where I was going at all. 

            We were given a free day after dropping off our belongings and were to return in the evening for the concert.  I spent the day hopping from magnificent church to magnificent church, taking pictures and marveling at the architecture and the artwork.  Each church was different, but equally beautiful and they seemed to pop out of no where.  All of sudden, during my walk, there would be another holy building, nestled in the middle of a non-descript intersection that would beckon me to come in, say a prayer and marvel at its beauty. 

            My goal that day was to get back to the Vatican- no matter how long of a walk it was.  By the time I had reached the Basilica, my feet were hot and swelling from walking but I was excited to be back.  Goodness- Saturday at the Basilica is a claustrophobic’s nightmare.  Paranoid that I would be pickpocketed and feeling suffocated by all the people surrounding me, I debated not even going into the Basilica.  The lines looked long, it was hot and the stench of sweaty people surrounding me was making me feel nauseous.  I decided to brave entering the Basilica- after all, I had walked all that way, why should I settle myself on the outside.

            I’m very glad that I did go in.  Now that I was on my own, I could wander around freely and spend time at the site.  I took hundreds of pictures, though the pictures will never do justice to what I saw.  I said prayers for my friends, family and even my enemies and wandered around leisurely, ducking out of the way of cameras that were pointing every which way, with people behind them trying as hard as I was to capture the essence of this place.   Coincidentally, I ran into baby faced Mario the tour guide, who was leading a group of South Americans through the Vatican.  In his friendly welcoming way, he greeted me and let me know that he would be joining us for the concert that night.  It was nice to see a familiar place throughout the crowd.

            Time restricted me from doing more of what I had planned and wanted to do.  I had desperately wanted to go St. John Lateran and St. Mary Maggiore, but I had to begin the trek back to San Andrea della Valle. 

            I’ll skip to the evening concert- the time before it was a quick practice, a delicious meal and attending mass in Italian at San Andrea.  The concert would feature a Japanese Choir, An Italian Choir and we, the Canadian choir.  The Italian choir sang first and I was transported to another place as they sang their program- all choral church music.  We followed the Italian choir and I sang my heart out as we lifted our voices as one in praise of God.  The Japanese choir was the last group, and I wish that there hadn’t been a language barrier so I could have told them just how they affected me.

            The Japanese choir, was a group comprised of young ladies in university.  They were very youthful looking, most of us had erroneously guessed that they were 14-15 years old.  They were full of energy- even though they were so well disciplined and behaved, you could see the energy dancing in their dark, bright eyes even before they sang.  They were very dignified looking in long black skirts and pristine white blouses.  Their shiny black hair was styled in different ways, but shared the common factor that whatever the style was, it allowed their faces and bright eyes to be clearly seen.  They started off in opposite aisles of the church facing each other and surrounding the audience.  Silence…..and then music, such glorious music!  They sang an antiphonal “Jubilate Deo” that caused tears to prick my eyes at the very phrase they sang.  Never had I heard such a pure sound in my life, and I have heard many choirs.  The purity of their girlish voices made my heart quicken and my soul swell.  Each song they sung seemed to make even more impact, but it was when they sang one of my very favourite choral pieces, “Ave Maria” by Biebl, that I had really felt like I had reached heaven and was surrounded by singing angels. 

            As soon as they started singing “Ave Maria”, it was if everyone in the church was gone.  All I could hear were the beautiful strands of music.  I remember turning my head to the left to look at the Tabernacle, the most central structure in the Catholic Church where the body of Christ is housed.  Just to the left of the ornate tabernacle was a statue of Mary the mother of God, holding her Son.  I began to weep uncontrollably.  I was so overwhelmed by hearing the purity of the music and gazing at this pure woman, Mary, who I admired so much and who I had such a devotion to.  Such love.  Such pure love.  I had forgotten this feeling of love.  I remembered the last time I felt it, and for the first time in a long time, I remembered and missed greatly the Felician sisters whom I had so wanted to join.  I know that my place is not with them, but I so wanted at that moment to run to the Mother house on Mississauga road and be with them and love God as they loved God.  My ministry is elsewhere, but the feeling was so overwhelming.   The angelic faces of the Japanese girls, the music, the art, the love- it was so profound and I found myself thinking, “And this is only a taste of what the joy and love in heaven will be like”. 

            The rest of the program of the Japanese choir continued to bring me to tears.  They sung such beautiful music using ancient sacred texts such as the “Tantum Ergo”, but was set to modern, beautiful, spirit filled music.  I actually had to leave my seat at one point because I was so overcome with emotion.  So many thoughts ran through my mind- thoughts of gratefulness for the gift of music, thoughts of love for God and for my family, thoughts of love for those I was singing with (especially for my director, singing teacher and my fellow St. Leonard Choir members) and thoughts of profound joy that I had been a part of this event. 


            That concert was a Spiritual milestone for me- A confirmation that indeed I was living out my intended vocation.


            We followed the concert with a dinner for all the choirs- once again, the universality of music, the commonness of music as a language made itself evident.  There were 3 different languages spoken among the choirs and because of this, we gravitated to our own choirs at the dinner.  We spoke with our own friends and smiled at the other groups but didn’t really speak with them.  Then, one of the Italian choirs started to sing “Siyahamaba”.  I’m not shy.  I jumped in with the Italian group and started singing with them.  Their eyes lit up when they realized that I from Canada knew the same song.  Other people joined in and we began a conga line that melded the Italians, Japanese and Canadians together- joined together by a South African freedom song.  What else but music could join people together like this?

            At our last concert on the Sunday afternoon, at the Festival of Brotherhood and Peace, we sang together again but added 3 more Italian choirs.  At the end of the concert, unplanned, all choirs sang “Auld Lang Syne” in our own languages- once again English, Japanese and Italian rang out.  Spontaneously our choir reached out to take the hands of our Japanese and Italian siblings in song.  It was a beautiful, touching sight to see hands of many colours and ages joined together and lifted as the common language of music unified all those present in harmony.  It is a sight I will forever treasure and it was beautiful ending to my experience in Italy.


            It has been almost a week and I still vividly remember at every spare moment I have the peace, the harmony, the joy, the love, the feast for the senses and the reminder of the love and greatness of God that I experienced in those short 9 days.   Though this is probably the longest musing I have ever written, my words do not adequately describe my true experience.  I have tried to share and explain my experience as best I could using simply vocabulary but I know I didn’t even come close.  It is my hope and prayer that you, my family and friends, may experience such a profound trip that will touch your soul and rejuvenate your spirit as much as this excursion did for me.  I went on this trip because I wanted to sing and travel and in return, I received so much more than I ever would have thought. 

I have learned that I am the person I was intended to be by the creator.  I have learned that music is my mother language and the language in which I best speak my faith.  I learned that “music is the universal language” is not simply a cliché and can be one of the most beautiful sights if you see in action.  I have learned that my vocation in life is being fulfilled.  Most of all, I have realized that I am beloved by God and blessed by His divine gift of music in so many ways.   I am so humbled and grateful.  Amen.


Musings Part 2


Monday, March 19th, 2012

It is 11:15 am here in Amsterdam where I am waiting for a flight.  Sitting on a cold vent by the window at Gate F 7, I have separated myself from the group so I can have a bit of “me” time.  Truly, the most trying thing in choir tours is the fact that it is very difficult to find a second away from the hustle and bustle and constant chatter of well-meaning by sometimes highly irritating people. 

I am grumpy.  I miss Italy, I need sleep and I am so irritated that I had to wake up at 2:30 this morning for a flight that I nearly missed due to a combination of incompetency from those planning our airport transfer and the slow procedure of going through security at  Rome’s airport.  I miss my friends who have continued on in the tour and are heading to Florence and Assisi today.   They will end up in Venice- a place that I have always wanted to see.  It is my hope that sitting here and musing about the events of the last few days may lighten my spirits as I get ready for this last leg of my trip. 

 The stories of my adventures ended at my musings about Pompeii and my reflections on Antiquity and our lack of admiration and appreciation for history.

Rome continued to marvel me with all its history, but this was not what affected me the most.  It was the music that we created and listened to and the grandeur of the spaces in which we sang that touched me profoundly.

The Vatican has always been the place I wanted to visit most in my life.  My Catholic faith has always been central in my life.  It has always been something that many of my friends have never understood or could believe.  Tara Nadal- the crazy, dramatic, outgoing, in your face type of person who loves to have fun and be the centre of attention- how could it be that she is also a person of deep devotion to her faith?  Truly, I don’t know.  All I know is that it has been the biggest force in my life.  The other very important facet of my life that people DO understand is the importance of music in my life.    When you marry the two together, then the importance of this trip should be evident.   Conducting at the Vatican, even if only one song, was a dream come true for me, though for many, it was a disappointment.

We spent that Wednesday morning getting up early, anxiously chattering with one another over a breakfast that would become very repetitive over the next few days- flaky croissants, meat that resembled ham, cheese, a heavy pound cake and strong coffee that needed something a little more than the thin, hot milk that was provided that gave the coffee a little lightening more than thickness.  Any stranger looking into the window of the Villaferrata would have thought that we were heading to the funeral of a diplomat.  We were dressed in our Sunday finest- well, our black Sunday finest- as we wanted to look dignified when heading to sing at the most important Basilica in Christianity.  The announcement was made that our three buses had arrived and we all filed onto the light yellow “Mocci” buses waiting for us at the front of our Villa.  It must have been an amusing sight to those watching- people of every colour, every personality, ranging in ages from a lone teenager to the energetic Doris, a 94 year old who wore heels and refused help when climbing the steep entrance to the bus, people with canes, wheelchairs and various other ailments anxiously pushing their way onto the bus.  The excitement was thick in the air- you could feel it clinging to us as we climbed into the buses. 

As we rode into Rome, we hit traffic that would even make the traffic in Manila look like a ride on an expressway.  The fumes of the Vespas , transit buses and cars caused me to feel that familiar dizzy feeling that I was beginning to get accustomed to on this trip.  Because of the traffic, our bus tour became very abbreviated and though I was disappointed that I would not see the sights I wanted to see, I wasn’t going to let it affect me, because we would, in a few short hours be singing at mass in the Vatican. 
I’ll end for now as it’s almost time to board and a group of noisy teenagers have once again gravitated towards me and have ended my moment of solitude.  The last installment of my musings will be from my home back in Brampton.  Back to reality…..

Musings from Italy- Part 1

My first set of travel blogs are from March 2012, but I'm just getting the chance to put them up now....


Thursday, March 15, 2012- Villaferrata, Italy

I feel very blessed having the opportunity I have had over the past few days.  I have always stated that I don’t mind being a pauper in a small house so long as I always have the chance to travel and experience new things.  It’s so important to expand our horizons beyond the life that we are accustomed to and know too well. 

Just so you have an idea of where I am right now.  I am sitting in the shade of a very tall and lush green hedge on this warm day.  It is 4:15 pm.  I can hear the sounds of the wind blowing through the umbrella trees to my right.  An owl is hooting and I can hear the laughter of some of my tour mates as they sit on the terrace and enjoy a drink and some fellowship.  As I look at my hotel I see many of my choir friends sitting on their balconies soaking up the sun while reading a good book or talking with their significant others.  The breeze is fresh and cool and all is right in the world. 

The last few days have been full- full but not hectic.  The first full day in Sorrento was one of great peace for me.  With a morning of free time given to us, I slipped away unnoticed after breakfast and spent a morning in solitude with my camera as my trusty companion.  Away from the hustle and bustle of my crazy, busy life in North America, I found myself relaxing as I walked through the tiny streets of Sorrento, poking my head in a few stores here and there and watching the people and stray dogs go about their business.  I stopped to stare at the orange and lemon trees in awe…how wonderful to be in a city that was fragrant with the smell of citrus- though on the larger streets the sweet smell was mingled with that of Vespa exhaust.  As I walked through the main square, I found a map outlining the city and began to identify and find the old churches in the Rustic town.  In quiet awe, I stopped in the Cathedral and revelled in the beauty of the churches- truly the churches of the past were worship to God through art.  While others may argue that the money spent on the churches could have gone to other things, I argue that the beauty that I witnessed is a true expression of glory and praise to the majesty of God that no longer exists in our secular world.  Each church I visited was a feast to my eyes and a prayer through the senses.  The old Franciscan monastery that I found had a true air of ancient reverence within it and a silence that I was afraid to disturb with the clicking of my camera.  As if to marry the old with the new, a beautiful modern statue of my favourite saint, St. Francis, stood outside of the monastery.  His arms were outstretched as if reaching to touch God in the heavens. 

Behind the monastery was a place of great beauty- a lookout point where I could see the island of Capri and the mighty Mount Vesuvius.  The wind was strong- so strong to the point that walking forward made me feel like I was pushing against a great force trying to hold me back.  I couldn’t seem to leave that spot though.  Even with the wind stinging my eyes, I marvelled at the beauty of God’s creation.

The afternoon was spent on the Amalfi coast.   As we wound through the mountainous region, my heart skipped many a beat as the bus came slightly too close to the edge of the cliffs more than once and I could see the long drop to the sea below us.  I tasted stomach acid numerous times as we twisted and turned around hairpin turns.  As I willed myself not to throw up, I tried to place all my energy into admiring the beautiful view.  The Amalfi coast was truly one of the most beautiful views I had ever seen in my lifetime.  The blue of the water met the blue of the sky.  A few lofty clouds graced the sky and small rocky islands peeked out through the azure water.  Everywhere you looked, you could see the cliffs peppered with clusters of white houses that seemed to grow out of the rock.  Even feeling ill, I still marvelled at what a beautiful sight was before me.

Amalfi the city was quaint.  I only had a short time there so I opted to go to the Cathedral.  On my own, I meandered through this old sacred space.  Deep in the church was the grave of St. Andrew the apostle.  I could not believe that the remains of such a holy man were in front of me and I took some quiet time to pray.  Silence.  Beautiful Silence.  I had a few seconds where I was the only one in the room with St. Andrew and I drank in those moments as I offered prayers for my family at the altar.  The short time in Amalfi was ended with my first taste of true Italian Pizza and a Pistachio Gelato.  I could not have been happier!

Pompeii was the next stop on our way to Rome.  I was amazed at how much of this city was preserved under the tragedy of the eruption of Mt. Vesuvius.  Our tour guide was so enthusiastic- really quite amazing considering that she does this tour day in and day out- and her graphic and detailed descriptions of everything made it so easy to visualise what life might have been like in those ancient days.  I could vividly see it all in my mind- the chariots that would have been in the city, the people in the togas, the altars to the Roman Gods and I could even smell the waste that would have flowed on the stony streets. 

One of the most amazing things in Pompeii, was the chance to see the preserved bodies of two people who were caught by surprise when the pyroclastic flow of the volcanic eruption fell over the unsuspecting victims.  I found myself wondering what their last thoughts would have been as the hot mixture of ashes and volcanic matter engulfed them.  It was scary to see them in positions with their arms out as if to try to stop to the volcanic matter that would swallow them live and spit them out as virtual statues.

This tour of Pompeii really made me realise just how young our country of Canada is and how much history other places hold.  It was amazing to stand on the grounds that I had so often heard about in history lessons of antiquity and really be able to picture the ancient society.   We are so unaware of how rich history is and how much we have learnt and can continue to learn from places such as Pompeii. 
Okay…I have to stop right now.  I haven’t talked about the Vatican stuff yet, but really, I’m still digesting.  I promise to write more tomorrow about the actual experience- there were so many things that could have tainted the experience and for many people it did.  For me, my moment was beautiful, but I’m still digesting the whole experience and I need to think a little more before I share... It actually has been a few hours since I started writing- we had a concert to attend in between- and my eyes are getting heavy….